*singing* Again....agaaaaiiinnn...*singing*

Again.
Here I am again.
With nothing to say again.
And doing nothing again.
With no one in here again.
At the college again.
Finished with finals...well...not again.
And wondering if security is going to kick me out again.

You know. I have something to tell you all. But I don't want to. Carol, you understand that if I say this, you must never bring it up. Ever. To anyone. Especialy anyone besides me. Simply because I'm not supposed to know, therefor, you are REALLY not supposed to know.

I want chocolate.
Thats not what I was going to say, I just thought I'd mention it.
I'm going to get some chocolate. And no one can stop me. Aha!!

Have chocolate. Am happy.

On with the tale that must be told! Simply because it is amazingly disturbing.

So. Little brother Micah and Amanda's little brother (and mine too, in every way but blood) Allen are friends with Sean and Justin (certain friends of mine whom you have heard much about). The four of them hang out occasionaly, and talk and chat about "things of earth and lore". So the other night, Sean took Micah home from soccer because I couldn't ever find them because I was a little late to the meeting place and they left on time.

So I see little brother and I ask "Who took you home?"
"Allen. But Sean and Justin followed us home and we've been out there talking for probly and hour."
"Really. What about?"
"Things of earth and lore."
"Uh hu...WHAT ABOUT YOU LITTLE PUNK?!?!"
"Can't tell you."
"You should at least make something up so I'm not going crazy over here. I hate not knowing! Tell me!"
"Can't. I would die."
"Come on."
"No!"
"Fine. Just tell me if it had anything to do with me."
"It did."
"What?!?!?!? TELL ME!! I WILL KILL!!"
"Umm....ok fine. You can't tell anyone! You can't act any different around the guys. You can't ever mention it to them. Nothing!"
"Fine. Not like it'll be a big deal. I don't think anything that have to say could suprise me anymore."
"Oh yes it could...."
"TELL!"
"Ok! So....Sean and Justin asked what Allen and I would think about one of them dating you."
"WHAT?!??! WHAT THE BLOODY HELL!! No...your being a crap head."
"No! I'm not! I'm serious! They wanted to know!"
"WHAT THE BADWORD! Why the heck would they wanna know that?...what did you say??"
"Not tellin. I never said I would tell what we said, only what they said."
"They really asked what you would think if one of them dated me?"
"Yes. They really did."
"Omg...."
And not a good 'omg'. A very bad 'omg'.
What the heck!! I've been friends with these guys! I've known them since...forever! We haven't always been friends, but one thing I really liked about being friends with them was the fact that neither of them ever acted like stupid normal guys. Sure, I'm pretty sure Justin had a crush on me for a while, but asking out...for bricks and mortors sakes! We just had a huge conversation during Coffee Questions about why Mariha has a boyfriend and I don't and why both of them were still single.
Sean and I's (I's....is that a word?) answer was "No time." Justin was pretty much "Well...I just don't."
Why would they ask? Why in heck would they ask?!?!??!!? Was it Justin? Was it Sean? Was it both of them wanting to know?
If it was Justin, its just because he wants a girl. He said so. And of course, there I am, non-threatening, available, and a complete and total hottie (ha on that last one, but ya know.)
It was Sean, its because Mariha said that the reason I have no boyfriend is because no guy is good enough for me, so I reject them all. In fact, I hardly ever give them a chance to ask. And he would want to prove that he could get me to go out with him (like Trevor did). Its a load of crap either way because they both know I don't want a boyfriend until after college. I have no time! I hardly have time to hang with my girlfriends, let alone a boyfriend. Whatever...I'm just mad about it all right now. AUGH!!! I just will never see either of them in the same light again.
WHY!?!?!? WHY ME?!?!? WHY NOW??!?!?! WHY THEM?!!?!?!?

SOMEONE GIVE ME ANSWERS HERE!!!!

(yes. Thats my unanswerable question for the post. Though apparently Sithlie found my last unanswerable question answerable...butt head...)

Later
-Shell