Oh dear mother of roses and violets...I hate ignorant people.
I leave for basic at the end of July : ) And I will be absent for two whole entire months. And then often absent after that I suppose. Aircrew begins! Pain and agony begins...But I'm looking forward to it, not gonna lie. Is that sick and twisted? Probably.
I have been in a strange mode of lates. And I mean mode, not mood. I've kind of been on autopilot. I'm so tired and yet I just keep truckin' on. I'm so bored and yet I keep doing the same thing over and over. I'm so annoyed and yet I keep silent. I'm incredibly anxious and yet earily calm. I feel like I'm going to explode and yet I am more relaxed than I have ever been.
Its not good, friends. Its not good. I think I'm starting to freak out about leaving, about giving up control of what I do for the next six years. I wish other people were excited about my decision. The general reaction is "Wow...I didn't know that...I didn't know that...so your not going to keep singing? Or theatre? Because you really are incredible!"
Yeah? Well too bad. I'm tired of it. I mean, I love it. But I'm tired of it. So yeah...
I know I sound depressed but I'm actually not...I'm in a really good mood today. I'm tired, but in a good mood. Again! I want to lay down and sleep and at the same time I want to go on a couple mile run!
ANYWAY. Now that you know that Shell is a walking basket-case...
Yeah.
I'm trying to think...hhmm...I have a young protegie! He is young and he is overweight and he is leaving for the Navy a couple weeks after me. And I am beating him and its fun!
Beating means PTing...by the way...a beating in the military is just getting a harsh workout. And I'm not beating him very badly at all, actually. Poor kid can only do 50 pushups in 2 min and they are in terrible form at that! And only 30 situps. But then, I only got 97 yesterday and I was kinda annoyed about that. And only 60 pushups *super sad face* *super annoyed face*
I don't even know why I'm updating! I shoudld be memorizing my lines...*sigh*
Please, comment, let me know you are alive and breathing. I do care.
-Shell
P.S. I refuse to spell check or proof read before posting. HA!
2 comments:
Of course we're alive. People like me don't die. Trite, but true.
Getting stuck in a routine does suck hard. I've been working desperately to get out of mine. So far, no luck.
Just hang in there. Eventually, things change, whether you want them to or not.
Have fun in Basic.
Dude, you alive? Did you fall of the boat? That's an awful way to go.
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