I love drama...and the drama in the drama

Ah...I love drama. And the drama in the drama. And the drama in the drama in the drama...you know?

What in the world...ohman...tonight was the worst and the best of times ever in theatre. Like, the former theatre director at the college came in today to fix stuff. She rocked. I liked her. I felt so much more confident and motivated while she was sitting in the audience. But she left and we all fell apart. No one was into it, Ryan was tired (again), Chad was depressed, Joey wasn't cracking jokes, I was sick of saying my lines over and over and over, Laura was acting like a brat, Lindsi was hacked off and frustrated, Kyle couldn't get into character, Karra kept forgetting stuff, and Jerad...well...he was the only one doin' alright.

Director chucked his notepad during one scene, and completely walked out of the theatre during mine and Lindsi's scene. And all he said when he came back in was "I didn't buy that hug." Too freakin bad!! I don't hug people from behind while they are sitting down!! No one does that!! NO ONE!!! ESPECIALY JOSIE! SHE JUST DOESN'T!!

Once it was over, we were all getting out of costume and were all a little afraid of what he was going to say. Ok. We were terrified. Plus other things had happened in fellow cast members lives outside of theatre that had us all really freaked out cause we were terrified that the said person was going to be re-cast, and we wouldn't be able to handle that at this point.

We go out, he's acting really calm and I'm like "He's fakin'." He said notes all nice and then started the lecture. Then we found out he had been sick the past two days, and barfing (which is why he didn't teach class this morning) and stuff...I wanted to say "So did you walk out of our scene because you had to hurl, or were you just throwing a fit?"

But I refrained....ohyeah! Then Laura was like hacked off and starts getting up to leave and Director was like

"What?"

And she like "Don't you have anything good to say about us? Any praise?"

And I thought "Ooh...man...wrong thing to say. PRIMA DONA MOMENT GIRL! You should have repressed that one."

He freaked out. I have never heard him yell before. He was threatening to re-cast her and my thoughts went to the afor mentioned person that is in danger of being re-cast and I became even more upset because I JUST COULDN'T HANDLE TWO RE-CASTINGS!! I CAN'T!! I don't even have that much interaction on stage with Laura, BUT I STILL COULDN'T DO IT! The other being re-cast would be a nightmare though. I've learned to work off and with them, and it took a while to figure it out. I would be in mental pieces by opening night if I had to relearn that stuff with someone else. Plus, even though I do not talk to said-person very much and don't even know them at all, I would still miss them.

So she started crying and...augh! THE DRAMA! THE PURE AND PATHETIC DRAMA!!! I was pretty much full of fury and doom and wanted to smack Laura and yell at Director. She needs some respect for Director and he needs some well-thought-out judgment calls. Hello! I don't care how dedicated you are, if your sick, don't come. Not only is your judgment impared, but you endanger the rest of the cast because we have show in a week and you have barf-sick germs everywhere!

The breakdowns, the drama, the stupid actions of fellow cast member that could screw everyone because there is no way that part can be re-cast, and me trying to stop being this person I'm not when I'm there. Its been a good day.

Life is just a little frustrating right now. JUST A LITTLE!! I let out a maniac laugh when it was all over. Director kept saying how we needed to have fun with the show. Lindsi and I were leaving and I was like "Well that was fun!"

"Yup! Can't wait to come back tomorrow and do it again!"

"No kidding! *maniac laugh*"

I need sleep. I need to go running in the morning. I need to write a bio to put in the program.

Later
-Shell