Idiot *hits head* IDIOT!

I feel like a flammin idiot. I really do. What the heck. I just...augh! I feel SO INCREDIBLY...*hits head on table* Haven't felt this dumb in a long time.

So I came to class this morning and my teacher (who is the play director) says to me "Did you see your name on the call-back list?""Nope. Haven't checked."

I thought he meant, it was on the call-back list. I don't even know where the office is that they posted it! So...I came to call-backs. I don't think I was supposed to be there. *Cannot believe how incredibly stupid she is* What...the heck...omg...I feel...stupid. And I'm wasting my afternoon here. I don't wanna tell mum and dad cause they were so excited that I got called-back. They were like, really excited. And I was. And there was no reason to be. Now...AUGH!! I don't even know what to say. Before, I couldn't even think about homework cause I was so excited. Now I can't because I feel like a complete...twit.

Whatever. They let me read again and all, and I did a fairly good job and I wasn't ashamed of my acting. My hands were shaking when I was up there. They never do that! Thats why I hate script holding. Get it memorized as quickly as possible. I didn't even get to watch anyone else try out. I tried out first as the lead role, with a supporting role, and then they stuck the same supporting role up there except with someone else, and then I was done.

I AM A FOOL.

AUGH!!!! *is screaming inside her head*

And I have to remember a childhood story that influenced me, and give a presentation on Monday about it. And I have to find the Arts Office and check on the door to see if I was called back. What the heck man...what the heck.

-Shell