Envy is an evil thing

I seem to always end being enviouse of pretty much everyone in life. But it's a horrible feeling every time. And when it's my own friends, I try to push it away as much as I possibly can. I try and go the otherway as far as I can, making it seem like I don't care at all or majorly encouraging them to go for that person, or take that job, or move to that place or whatever.

But it sucks.

And one of my co-workers will be leaving at the end of October and she was totally my fav. person who worked here. I love everyone, but she was the best. I wouldn't have this job here if it weren't for her. And I wouldn't have read 1/2 the books that I have in the past year and 1/2 that I've read, if it weren't for her.
Now, I say "Go Tasha!" Cause she's moving on to better things with bigger pay and better opportunities to change peoples lives, but I so depressed being here still. Granted, she is in her late 20's, and can do more with life then I can right now. But it is still depressing. And I'm going to miss her loads.

COME ON PEOPLE!! That makes my 2 fav. people gone within a couple months of each other! *sighs* Amy had better not move to Alaska. lol

Last night was Amanda's 18th b-day and we all suprised her for a party. It was fun. Jacob got this amusing idea to have us all go upstairs and she would come in and all she would see is him, sitting in her house, reading a book. Very random. We thought it was funny so we're all jogging in the stairs in the dark (the stairs are like, 3 ft. wide and wood. LOTS of noise) and she pulls in the drive and could totally hear us all pounding up her stairs and yelling at each other to shut up and hurry up and stuff. But she thought it was just Daniel, Carl and Jacob making a lot of noise cause they had said they might be able to hang out.

So we're all up there and Amanda comes in and her little sister who is 4, had come up stairs with us and she yells "Amanda! We're not here!" So of course, we just died laughing and all came yelling down the steps and there was a lot of laughing and enjoyment. It was fun. She was super bummed that no one was doing anything for her birthday so we were like "Bwahaha!" And it was a gag-gift party which make it hysterical. Fun times.

I'm gonna go now. I think I'm supposed to go back to work now. Darn it...arg...hate going back to work. hehehe...

Oooo! But we have a dance session for the play on tomorrow. Goodnesstimes!!
Later
-Shell